Thank you momma!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Long nights with a newborn as most of you that have kids know is hard. Of course it's hard. You go from having all night to sleep, all day to take a shower, all day to feed yourself to BOOM your whole life is consumed by this little tiny person that does nothing but poop, eat, sleep, and look so dang cute you can't help but stare at him all the time. All of this so new to me and Derek and it's been especially hard since Derek cut his hand. I've pretty much had to take on most of the duties. I have to change the diapers, change the clothes, feed the baby, burp the baby and at some point try to squeeze in time to pee, eat, change clothes, and maybe at some point in time take a shower. (I know I stink right now so please don't remind me if you see me) Last night was my breaking point. I had been pushed past both my physical and mental limits and I completely broke down into tears. I couldn't get him to stop crying and I couldn't get him to latch on so he could eat. I was getting frustrated and scared and so I called the one person that could comfort me and help me out more than anyone else....my mom. My mom is the best mother a new mother could ask for. She worked all day yesterday going into work probably around 7 and not getting done with her jobs until almost midnight last night but she still managed to come over to her crying daughters house one town over and help until the wee hours of the morning and then wake up and go to work at 7. She let me sleep for a few hours from around 12:30 to almost three in the morning. Once she woke me up I let her sleep. She would wake up everytime the baby would and she would help me get him latched on then she would either burp him or change his diaper. He's been so fussy these last few nights because I didn't have my milk the first night. The second night he kept getting cold and not sleeping very well. Then last night I couldn't get him to do anything but scream. My mom has helped me more than I have asked for. Even in the delivery room she was by my side when everyone else was gone. She stayed with me for everything and was always that little voice that kept telling me I was doing so good and that it was all ok. She has truely gone above and beyond the call of mother hood and I hope that one day I will be able to show the same care for her that she has shown to me. I don't know what I would do without my mom. She is my rock and I love her so much for all the things that she does for me both small and large. I truely am thankful and greatful that God blessed me with such a wonderful mother.